I must start writing, they tell me. Why? Because I'm a writer: in just the same way as a lover must go on loving, or a liar must go on lying, and a murderer must go on murdering. But then I am a lover and a liar and a murderer too.
See, I just write that and you believe me. If you're intelligent, you'll wonder if I mean those things in a physical or in a metaphorical sense.
Words! These are only words. Turn them one way, they mean one thing; twist them another, and their sense convolutes beyond the notions of a blind man. I'm not blind. But there, I'm digressing. Let me come back to my point and I can do that very simply by choosing to write these words. THAT is the power given to the writer. It is the power to come back, and to undo, and to modify.
If you ask 'why' I will tell you very simply that it is because the writer uses words. You now think that we are going around in circles and you are right. I have craftily brought to back to my pet peeve, to my words - with my words.
Words are such simple, efficient tools. With enough practice anyone can learn to wield them to his purpose. But there's another interesting point for digression: Purpose.
Purpose drives the machinery of existence.
No, don't bother arguing with me because this is my page, my space and I choose the words that go down on it. But to indulge you or irk you - as you would allow for - let me explain that Purpose not only drives you into love, into sex, or into procreation, but purpose also drives the slop that drips from your anus just before you reach for the toilet paper. Sometimes Purpose is disguised in tricky alphabets that spell DNA, gravity, divine revelation, etc. But the undeniable fact is that Purpose is omnipresent.
But wait, Purpose is not God. I can see where that logical analogy is coming from: you must have been a good student at school. But here's where the simple logic of 'A-equals-B and-B-equals-C-so-A-equals-C' fails. However you may assume that since God is omnipresent and since He allows Purpose to define all His actions, Purpose is also omnipresent.
Now let me show you a simple word trick. Do not try this on your own because it is a dangerous trick. However, since I am a writer and I have the power of the words, I can do it easily. Watch!
Purpose is omnipresent and Purpose defines all the actions of God. So God is actually a slave to Purpose. But then as I already explained earlier, we are all slaves to Purpose. So if we apply your A-B-C logic in this case, what we have is: we are God.
See? You are God. And so am I.
This is really crucial so never let it slip out of your mind. This is one of those things they don't teach you at that logical analogy school you went to. Of course, I wouldn't expect them to teach you this because it would upset the equation.
I don't expect you to know the equation either. I mean, if you didn't know that you were God until now, how would you know the equation? But now that you are enlightened, it will be really easy for you to guess that there are a number of people who aren't just as you weren't before I could tell you. Get it?
The equation is between the people who know and the people who don't know that they are God.
You are not going to ask me how it makes any difference because you already know. Just imagine what a person who was blindfolded permanently from as far back as he could remember would do: mostly nothing, unless he had a serious death wish.
Let me explain: this blindfolded person is akin to a blind man who has never seen the light. He doesn't know that everyone around him doesn't wear a blindfold, so he believes that it is a part of his attire, or that he might die if he gets rid of it. But then I come along and tell him that he's only blindfolded, not blind. That knowledge gives him power, power to reach behind his head and throw off his blindfold. And voila, life is a different place altogether.
So you see there IS a difference between the people who know and the people who don't. It IS a key difference because it brings about the balance of power or the equation.
People who know about the equation are able to use the power. They are able to make things happen in the manner they wish them to happen. You are not so naïve as to expect this to take place directly. It doesn't. This power is channelled through chains of other people before it achieves its goal.
Who are these other people? Some of them are people who know, and concede the use of their selves. But most of them are people who don't know and hence, who get used unwittingly. So you see it is completely beneficial for the people who know to have lots of people who don't know around them. That is how they are able to make things happen in the manner they wish them to happen.
You will now think that I am crazy. But stop and think. Haven't you been used by so many people? Haven't you felt cheated and almost forced into something you really didn't care for? But that was the story of before. Now that you know that you are God and you have understood that this means being a slave to purpose, you can turn things around.
Once, there was a woman. Don't expect me to tell you what kind of woman because that is not my purpose. I will not reveal her name, her hair colour, or bone structure. I will not tell you if she was fat or thin. I have already told you all that I wanted to tell you about her. Instead, I will tell you something about myself: I am a man. But if you are smart, you already know that. This is also something that they didn't teach you at that logical analogy school you went to. This is something you know by your power of being God. I will repeat this many times because I want you to believe it. But also because I have the privilege of being a writer and right now as you read my words you are a slave to my purpose. And you know much about me, that I am a writer and that I am a man and that I am not blind.
You also know that a man needs a woman. And therefore, you will not be surprised when I confess that I once considered having a woman. Your mind has been considerably opened in the last few minutes. So I'm certain that you are not conjuring up images of physical union. Physical fulfilment rests in my palm, on the shoulder of the girl I'm standing next to in the bus, in the rump of my guard's teenage son. Physical fulfilment is not difficult to attain.
When I say I needed a woman, my words must convey the desire to fulfil a spiritual need because a woman holds the other half of a man's soul. The union of these two souls is the ultimate union of two Gods. This is where power is multiplied manifold. If you are trying to realize this level of authority over your life, you must find a woman or a man (as the case may be).
I found a woman, the one I just spoke of. She didn't know that she was God and I didn't tell her. What I did tell her was that she was beautiful and that she had the prettiest eyes in the whole wide world. Don't even begin to envy me; envy is not the game of Gods. Also I don't know if I told her the truth. I can hardly tell what beauty is or what pretty eyes look like, much less compare them to all the rest in the world. But women like to hear such things and if you want to have a woman, you must tell her such things. And I told her many more because I have my way with the words. But you know that already.
We were both Gods, one with the knowledge of it, the other without. Although she didn't know about the power balance that was involved in this union, her soul knew instinctively. She fell in love with me. I would not like to use the same words to describe my own composition, so I will merely say that I allowed our souls to unite. You will not believe me until you experience this yourself, so I will not bother to describe it.
I will only say that it was like being lucky all of a sudden. Only you know that it wasn't luck; it was the power of purpose that I had claimed for my own. I could make a lot bigger things go my way much sooner than before. There is an inherent advantage in binding your soul to a person who doesn't know: you can be the sole master of an infinite reserve of power. This is how it was for me.
However, I must confess, I made a slight error in judgement that lead to a huge disruption in my plans. I assumed that having had my woman and having harnessed the power brought about by the union of our souls, my job with the woman was done. There I was wrong.
You may call it sheer coincidence or deliberate mischievousness, but through my powers of being God, I became aware of a growing interest in my woman of other men. I also came to know that these were men who didn't know that they were God and who weren't aware of the equation. If they did they wouldn't have even tried to think of a woman whose soul was united with that of another God. A previously unheeded fear took seat in my mind that my woman was also susceptible to such thoughts of other men because she also didn't have the knowledge that gave power. I was in a tricky situation and I had only my words to help me out of it.
I decided to tell the woman that she was God.
I laboured lovingly over my words, sharpening them, blunting them and occasionally twisting them to make her understand. You already know of the painstaking efforts I have taken to make you understand. So you will believe me when I tell you that she believed me when I told her that she was God.
Being God, you expect not to make mistakes. Being God, you expect not to falter. But that expectation is in itself a huge miscalculation. Once you are aware that you are God, you need to keep reminding yourself about it. You cannot allow the lethargy of expectation and assumption to creep in. That is why I keep repeating to you again and again that you are God. I made a mistake when I assumed that everything would be fine now that we both knew we were Gods. I lost my purpose.
But my woman had found hers. Just as I had used her dormant power to my benefit, she began using mine. She soon discovered all that I have revealed to you about the equation and she understood that it would benefit her most if she were united with a soul that did not know. The only obstacle in her path was I and I was a mighty obstacle because I not only still wielded the great power that she shared with me but I also had the power of the words because I was a writer.
My woman began looking for a means to get some power that could equate with the power of my words. It had to be a power that only she could tap and I could not access. She used a considerable extent of our combined Godly powers to find another such power but she was unsuccessful, that is, until I helped her unwittingly.
I told the woman that she was beautiful and that she had the prettiest eyes in the whole wide world. For a long time she had not thought of questioning her belief in my professed admiration. But one day she heard the words of another writer, not as proficient as me, but nevertheless endowed with the power of the words. And then she knew that I was lying. She knew that she had none of what you could call beauty. And just like that she now had a power that could not only equate with but was also greater than my power of the words.
She had the truth.
You must know that the truth is a gigantic power. It hasn't been documented, but it is probably the greatest power of them all. In fact, when the Gods who wrote a holy book said it, they forget to highlight it: the truth shall set you free. It worked for my woman too. She had wanted it for long and so our souls began to disunite. The truth had begun to set her free.
The moment it began, I knew. And I didn't want it to happen, but the power of my words, however twisted, was no match for her power of truth. I considered the equation and power balance. I saw that I was set to lose much because of this wanton development. But, being God, I was able to immediately sort the relevant information and work a solution.
Looking back, it was really simple. All I needed to keep my stock of power was my woman's soul. Therefore, all I needed was her soul. Since you are also God, you will know that the only way a soul will leave a person is via that person's death. And you will be right if you begin to wonder whether the thought crossed my mind.
There is no need for me to tell you how I planned and how I executed it. There were many ways of doing such a thing and these are on record in case you wish to refer to them. But that was to become the most memorable day in my life. That day I became a God among Gods for I had more power than any other God. And I was the woman. And I was blind.
You must be astonished at this point. I can tell because that is the extent of my power now. I can feel what you feel even as you listen to my words. You will soon feel my exhilaration too. But this lesson ends for today. Now go and think.
I will, of course, keep writing. But you know that already. Yes, because you are God, and because I'm a writer with a purpose. I'm a lover and a liar and a murderer too. I know you believe me now.